I need to start blogging again. People are too difficult to talk to and my psych was a wall.
So much has been going on. I've questioned my sexuality and practically fallen in love with one of my closest friends. Except, I don't think she's that close. We talk. Constantly. There was a point when if I didn't reply for more than ten minutes she would go crazy, but now...Now it's gotten to the point where she can't stand me. I shouldn't be surprised eh?
To top things off, people from my past are showing up. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm still trying to figure that out.
One more diploma left and then high school is over for forever.
I'm pretty sure I failed science 30. I didn't go to class for two months. Instead I spent most of my time drinking and lazying around. How the hell did I mess up so much???
I feel so overwhelmed. Left and right people are throwing my faults at me. Overwhelming. Pushy. Mean. Rude. Snobby. Selfish.
I've been crying nonstop. At work, during, after. I don't want to go through this again. This time, summer won't end by going back to school. This year, I'll have to find my own way to escape, and it can't be alcohol. Although...my friend and I are planning on getting high on Friday.
What am I doing with my life? And why do I still feel so alone?