My meals today:
Breakfast at 1030--1 piece of pizza
Snack at 1100--3 oranges
1120--2 chocolate bars
345--huge plate of rice and chicken

I knew I shouldn't have eaten so much. I now have the worst back and side pain. I can't sit, stand, turn, or any sort of movement.

To top it off, I dreading tomorrow so much. I don't want to go anywhere on New Years. I'm so nervous. I know it sounds crazy. I wish I knew how to describe what I'm feeling.

Argh. Another year...and I'm in the same place I always am. Just once...I want things to be different.